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controlledvariable) wrote2014-02-02 07:59 pm
controlledvariable) wrote2014-02-02 07:59 pm
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oh come on im not completely inept. at least skip ahead to the spaghetti lessgon
well my dad showed me the classics in middle school. you know, mac n cheese, cereal, sandwiches? im pretty sure that was all i ate for awhile
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hey, you've got the main food groups covered, then.
breakfast, lunch and dinner. sometimes i got really creative and put chocolate sauce over ice cream for dessert
give me a box and i can probably not mess it up. im just not very good at any of the other stuff
give me a box and i can probably not mess it up. im just not very good at any of the other stuff
you'll be the next iron chef
the other stuff takes a little while, but it's not hard once you get the hang of it
the other stuff takes a little while, but it's not hard once you get the hang of it
well then, im open to lessons
this other girl was going to start a class or something last time i was here but idk if shes still around
this other girl was going to start a class or something last time i was here but idk if shes still around
lessons it is, then
i haven't heard anything like that so probably not
[There's Jesse, sort of, but there's no way she's bringing that up.]
i haven't heard anything like that so probably not
[There's Jesse, sort of, but there's no way she's bringing that up.]
[Yeeeah, probably the best idea. Still, Isaac should probably go look up Madoka at some point, she was pretty nice to him.... well, this is as good of a reminder as any.]
cool.
let me know when youre free
cool.
let me know when youre free
[Slightly backdated to earlier on the 26th.]
If you're getting this, you wanted to know more about the clones. I'm going to tell the network what I know soon, but here's a copy of my notes.
[Attached is this document.]
If you're getting this, you wanted to know more about the clones. I'm going to tell the network what I know soon, but here's a copy of my notes.
[Attached is this document.]
I don't know a lot of people that think logically when they're pissed off. Way to go, mutiny. Very progressive.
[She rolls her eyes. If only Marlene was here.]
[She rolls her eyes. If only Marlene was here.]
Even if they do end up managing to change things, it sure as hell wasn't worth it.
[She's so glad Saul told her what Jesse did, but she can't help the part of her that wishes she didn't know.
She's going to miss him.]
[She's so glad Saul told her what Jesse did, but she can't help the part of her that wishes she didn't know.
She's going to miss him.]
It's not going to change for the better.
[Ellie's already decided she's not going to listen to Steph until she sees what's what with Jesse herself.
Then... she doesn't know.]
[Ellie's already decided she's not going to listen to Steph until she sees what's what with Jesse herself.
Then... she doesn't know.]
We'll see.
[Once people stop going for each other's throats, it may actually make them sit up and pay some fucking attention to the state of things.
Anyway, that's not the point:]
Are you gonna keep away from Jesse? I'd rather you didn't even talk to him over the network, but i figure that might be asking too much.
[Ellie's too damn stubborn.]
[Once people stop going for each other's throats, it may actually make them sit up and pay some fucking attention to the state of things.
Anyway, that's not the point:]
Are you gonna keep away from Jesse? I'd rather you didn't even talk to him over the network, but i figure that might be asking too much.
[Ellie's too damn stubborn.]
[Her cute kid cover is shaky, at best.]
Probably not.
[At least she looks a little apologetic for it.]
Probably not.
[At least she looks a little apologetic for it.]
[She doesn't know what to do.
She was at the end of her rope days ago, now she's just clutching at nothing and trying not to drown beneath all this. It feels like she hasn't slept since this all started, except for those few hours while she was still under the effect of Max's empthy, and there's a part of her that just wants that back.
Not caring was so much easier.
But that's not really an option, just like starting to cry isn't, as much as she wants to do that, too. She can't lose it in front of Ellie; if nothing else, it feels too manipulative.]
Okay.
[She drops her head into her hands, sounding defeated, because she just - can't look at Ellie. Can't think of Jesse hurting her, can't think of having to kill him for it.
She wishes she never made that fucking promise.]
She was at the end of her rope days ago, now she's just clutching at nothing and trying not to drown beneath all this. It feels like she hasn't slept since this all started, except for those few hours while she was still under the effect of Max's empthy, and there's a part of her that just wants that back.
Not caring was so much easier.
But that's not really an option, just like starting to cry isn't, as much as she wants to do that, too. She can't lose it in front of Ellie; if nothing else, it feels too manipulative.]
Okay.
[She drops her head into her hands, sounding defeated, because she just - can't look at Ellie. Can't think of Jesse hurting her, can't think of having to kill him for it.
She wishes she never made that fucking promise.]
[Ellie's waiting for Steph to argue, maybe even threaten to drag Joel into this, but it doesn't come. She doesn't like how Steph sounds, but Ellie's stubborn.]
He won't hurt me.
[It's not so much faith in Jesse as much as it is faith in herself. The last time anyone had her pinned, struggling, she took a machete to their face. As much as she likes Jesse, she'd like to think she wouldn't hesitate.]
I know you're worried, but I doubt Jesse is the worst person on the moon.
He won't hurt me.
[It's not so much faith in Jesse as much as it is faith in herself. The last time anyone had her pinned, struggling, she took a machete to their face. As much as she likes Jesse, she'd like to think she wouldn't hesitate.]
I know you're worried, but I doubt Jesse is the worst person on the moon.
[And it's not that she doesn't think Ellie would be able to defend herself, but she knows that sometimes getting away isn't enough to undo it. Sonya fought Jesse off, but she's still been carrying that guilt and blaming herself for months. She still broke down in Steph's arms.
She doesn't want that to happen to Ellie.]
It's different when it's a friend.
[She still hasn't looked back up.]
She doesn't want that to happen to Ellie.]
It's different when it's a friend.
[She still hasn't looked back up.]
Then what do you do if a friend is fucked up? Cut him loose? [It was scary, how quick people were to turn on Jesse.]
You try to help them.
[That's what her plan was before the latest revelation about Jesse came to light.]
But sometimes you've gotta look after yourself, first.
[It used to be easier for her before the whole vigilante gig, and while there are some cases where she just can't do it.
What Jesse did to Sonya is unforgivable.]
[That's what her plan was before the latest revelation about Jesse came to light.]
But sometimes you've gotta look after yourself, first.
[It used to be easier for her before the whole vigilante gig, and while there are some cases where she just can't do it.
What Jesse did to Sonya is unforgivable.]
I guess. [If Ellie can handle Jesse, then surely Steph can. Different worlds made all the difference, not-so-surprisingly.]
Do you know why he's so messed up?
[She doubts it's an easy answer, or one Steph will be willing to share if she has an idea.]
Do you know why he's so messed up?
[She doubts it's an easy answer, or one Steph will be willing to share if she has an idea.]
I've got a couple of guesses.
[She knows Jesse hasn't exactly been subtle about his drug use, that he's called himself a junkie before, but she still pauses a second before answering.]
Meth kind of fucks you up. So does emotional abuse.
[And she thinks it's a combination of the two that put Jesse where he is now.]
[She knows Jesse hasn't exactly been subtle about his drug use, that he's called himself a junkie before, but she still pauses a second before answering.]
Meth kind of fucks you up. So does emotional abuse.
[And she thinks it's a combination of the two that put Jesse where he is now.]
[She only knows about meth from references in books. Bad stuff, got it.]
By his parents or something?
By his parents or something?
Nah, it's-- complicated. It's not really my place to tell.
[God knows she wouldn't want someone doing the same to her.]
[God knows she wouldn't want someone doing the same to her.]
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