[How come she can run her mouth off and talk nonsense just fine, but as soon as something important comes up, she feels like she's forgotten every single word she knows?]

God. [Just muttered to herself, as she rubs at her brow, because she's getting a headache just from how messed up this all is.] You know you're making things really fucking complicated, right?

[He probably does, but she feels like it can't hurt to repeat it. Things already kind of sucked, trying to reconcile how she felt about Ellie with how much she cares about Vanadi. She didn't need one more thing into the works.]

I can't do anything that'd hurt Ellie, I hate myself enough for just-- [For just thinking about it, for not pulling away as soon as she realized what Saul was doing.] I don't want to be that kind of person.