[A bit more defensive than she really needs to be, and it probably gives away the fact that she was kind of hoping it would help.
Still:]
It's not about calling her my girlfriend, it's about knowing what she wants. Ellie isn't-- She doesn't really understand anything other than one hundred percent committed relationships.
[It feels a little mean, like she's calling Ellie naive or narrow minded or something but it's... true. She hadn't understood Steph's situation with Vanadi, couldn't seem to wrap her head around casual sex with a friend.]
But I think she's still struggling a bit with the whole fact I'm a girl and that we're caught up in all this bullshit with the Initiative and that we're each other's best friend, here. So I don't know what she wants. From me. And I need to figure it out because this is killing me.
[Those were... way more words than she wanted to say, and there's a quiet groan as she drops her head onto her desk, wishing she could just throw her tablet into the ocean or something.]
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[A bit more defensive than she really needs to be, and it probably gives away the fact that she was kind of hoping it would help.
Still:]
It's not about calling her my girlfriend, it's about knowing what she wants. Ellie isn't-- She doesn't really understand anything other than one hundred percent committed relationships.
[It feels a little mean, like she's calling Ellie naive or narrow minded or something but it's... true. She hadn't understood Steph's situation with Vanadi, couldn't seem to wrap her head around casual sex with a friend.]
But I think she's still struggling a bit with the whole fact I'm a girl and that we're caught up in all this bullshit with the Initiative and that we're each other's best friend, here. So I don't know what she wants. From me. And I need to figure it out because this is killing me.
[Those were... way more words than she wanted to say, and there's a quiet groan as she drops her head onto her desk, wishing she could just throw her tablet into the ocean or something.]