It feels like it's never going to stop, that they'll just keep circling each other and making really fucking stupid decisions that leave things terrible and awkward, that she's going to keep dwelling on this even when things are sorted out with Ellie.
So while she should push him away or tell him to fuck off or do any number of things, what she does do, after a moment of tension, is kiss him back. She tries to tell herself that she's not cheating, because her and Ellie haven't discussed what they are or what's expected of them. It doesn't make her feel any less guilty, won't make her feel any less guilty, but it doesn't stop her from kissing him, either.]
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It feels like it's never going to stop, that they'll just keep circling each other and making really fucking stupid decisions that leave things terrible and awkward, that she's going to keep dwelling on this even when things are sorted out with Ellie.
So while she should push him away or tell him to fuck off or do any number of things, what she does do, after a moment of tension, is kiss him back. She tries to tell herself that she's not cheating, because her and Ellie haven't discussed what they are or what's expected of them. It doesn't make her feel any less guilty, won't make her feel any less guilty, but it doesn't stop her from kissing him, either.]