She should, she knows she should, but all Steph can do is sigh and close her eyes and lean into the touch, just a little.
Her girlfriend is a few floors down, curled up asleep their bed, and she's here with Saul, wishing that she could kiss him. She doesn't know when everything got so screwed up, when she got so screwed up, but it feels like she passed the point of no return months ago.
This is going to keep happening; she'll try to choose Ellie, but she keeps getting drawn back to Saul no matter how much she knows she shouldn't. They're circling each other, because she can't give in and she can't let him go, and she can't leave Ellie when she loves her just as much. So it's going to keep being like this, Ellie in her bed and these secret, stolen moments with Saul.
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She should, she knows she should, but all Steph can do is sigh and close her eyes and lean into the touch, just a little.
Her girlfriend is a few floors down, curled up asleep their bed, and she's here with Saul, wishing that she could kiss him. She doesn't know when everything got so screwed up, when she got so screwed up, but it feels like she passed the point of no return months ago.
This is going to keep happening; she'll try to choose Ellie, but she keeps getting drawn back to Saul no matter how much she knows she shouldn't. They're circling each other, because she can't give in and she can't let him go, and she can't leave Ellie when she loves her just as much. So it's going to keep being like this, Ellie in her bed and these secret, stolen moments with Saul.
And it's going to keep hurting.]