the last time someone locked me in a closet i almost killed someone. a friend of mine. i attacked her and she would have died if scott hadnt come and let me out. he had to hold me down until i regained control.
and it sucked. and i felt really guilty but she said she was fine. the person i attacked said it wasnt my fault and they both forgave me like that.
because sometimes when you need to get out you lose it. i... i know how it feels to not be able to breathe anymore. i know how you lose control and youll do anything to open that lid- door whatever. youre not you, youre just a trapped animal and your mind is gone.
so its stupid to blame yourself. you know and i know that youre a logical, smart person. we both know that youre more than capable. if anyone ever blames you for what happened then you just look at them and know that they have never felt the way you have
and then hit them because they're wrong. but that's beside the point
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and it sucked. and i felt really guilty but she said she was fine. the person i attacked said it wasnt my fault and they both forgave me like that.
because sometimes when you need to get out you lose it. i... i know how it feels to not be able to breathe anymore. i know how you lose control and youll do anything to open that lid- door whatever. youre not you, youre just a trapped animal and your mind is gone.
so its stupid to blame yourself. you know and i know that youre a logical, smart person. we both know that youre more than capable. if anyone ever blames you for what happened then you just look at them and know that they have never felt the way you have
and then hit them because they're wrong. but that's beside the point