She was at the end of her rope days ago, now she's just clutching at nothing and trying not to drown beneath all this. It feels like she hasn't slept since this all started, except for those few hours while she was still under the effect of Max's empthy, and there's a part of her that just wants that back.
Not caring was so much easier.
But that's not really an option, just like starting to cry isn't, as much as she wants to do that, too. She can't lose it in front of Ellie; if nothing else, it feels too manipulative.]
Okay.
[She drops her head into her hands, sounding defeated, because she just - can't look at Ellie. Can't think of Jesse hurting her, can't think of having to kill him for it.
shibe intensifies
She was at the end of her rope days ago, now she's just clutching at nothing and trying not to drown beneath all this. It feels like she hasn't slept since this all started, except for those few hours while she was still under the effect of Max's empthy, and there's a part of her that just wants that back.
Not caring was so much easier.
But that's not really an option, just like starting to cry isn't, as much as she wants to do that, too. She can't lose it in front of Ellie; if nothing else, it feels too manipulative.]
Okay.
[She drops her head into her hands, sounding defeated, because she just - can't look at Ellie. Can't think of Jesse hurting her, can't think of having to kill him for it.
She wishes she never made that fucking promise.]