[She looks at him for a long moment, like something's just occured to her, and then she starts laughing, a proper, loud laugh that has her covering her mouth with a hand to try to muffle it.]
Sorry, sorry, I just imagined you all dressed up in a tux.
That's nice of you to say, and he would, but... I mean, either option isn't about changing things for me. Even if I told him, he still wouldn't remember or know me better than he does, so it's more about what's doing right for him. That's okay with me, though, so don't worry about it!
But it would change things, wouldn't it? It's pretty clear this is something that's weighing on you, and there's a risk in whatever you do, that you could lose the chance to have a friendship with him the second time around.
[She doesn't like bringing up that possibility, but it's not something that can be sugarcoated.]
[The noise is thoughtful, and it's a moment before she speaks.]
I don't know. I mean, we were - more than friends, but not in the way that sounds. No matter what, we won't get what we had back. So for me, it's more important to do what's fair for him. That's what's going to make me happiest, too, knowing I didn't mess things up if he leaves.
[And that makes sense, even if she'd rather Ahiru be happy than some stranger she doesn't know, but that's kind of selfish and she knows it.]
I can get that. [She gives Ahiru's hands a gentle squeeze, then lets go.] If he's a good person, I hope he'd understand if you told him that he knew him. Do you think you'd feel better with the truth told, instead of feeling like you have to keep a secret from him?
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