[That's the problem with people, Saul thinks. That's why he doesn't hold anyone to too high a standard: they're selfish, they're disappointing, they hurt you. Sometimes intentionally, sometimes not.
He never meant to hurt her.
Just like he's sure she doesn't mean to hurt him, because hearing "I love you" shouldn't make anyone feel the way Saul feels now. It makes no sense.
But he doesn't want to say what he thought of saying before, that mix of pleas for to change her mind, to not feel the way she does. He won't scare her away from it and can't force her to feel otherwise — the heart wants what it wants, right?
So he figures the best he can do now is make sure she never regrets it.
And if that means he has to stop being so stupid and shitty, fine. He'll try.
This is why, instead of trying to kiss her, he just goes on holding her the way he's been, fingers curled into her damp hair.]
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He never meant to hurt her.
Just like he's sure she doesn't mean to hurt him, because hearing "I love you" shouldn't make anyone feel the way Saul feels now. It makes no sense.
But he doesn't want to say what he thought of saying before, that mix of pleas for to change her mind, to not feel the way she does. He won't scare her away from it and can't force her to feel otherwise — the heart wants what it wants, right?
So he figures the best he can do now is make sure she never regrets it.
And if that means he has to stop being so stupid and shitty, fine. He'll try.
This is why, instead of trying to kiss her, he just goes on holding her the way he's been, fingers curled into her damp hair.]