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text, sometime in the dead of morning on the 29th; 1/?

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Did I ever tell you I hate flying?

2/?

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I mean, I'll admit that it's cool from a technological standpoint or w/e but when you take into account how high up you are and how the only thing separating you from a very unpleasant trip down is a big hunk of metal and some physics

3/?

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that's a little scary, don't you think?

4/?

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So when it's a rocket that's going how many times higher and is propelled by explosives and is headed for a previously uninhabited part of our solar system...

5/?

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I was a little kid when Armstrong walked on the moon. I'm gonna be pissed if our flag's not up there.

6/?

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You ever see that famous "Earthrise" photo? Taken from the moon on some Apollo mission — it's that picture of Earth looking teeny tiny. It was the December page for one of the calendars Francesca got me a few years back.

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I wonder if that's what it really looks like.

8/almost done

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sorry

9/10

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I'm just freaking out a little bit, I guess.

DONE

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You might say I'm turning into







a lunatic.




OK, goodnight.

SIGH

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[She's half asleep when she gets the first one, and groans once she realizes it's not an emergency.

Goddammit.]

you'll be fine, saul. the spaceship's perfectly safe, i was there a lot of the time they were working on it, and jim's one of the best, he wouldn't have cleared it for flight if it wasn't safe.

it's gonna be okay.

[But she does also send him a series of audio files; piano concertos from her iPod, ones that she uses to relax after a night on patrol, to give him something to listen to during the flight.]

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[Sorry, Steph.

Saul scrolls through the files when they show up, brow wrinkling. He listens to about thirty seconds of one before sending another message:]

Thanks. That drug you used on Jesse — do you have any leftovers?

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i do, yeah.

[She doesn't want to knock him out.]

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Share?

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[She wants to tell him to fuck off, because things like that is how her mom started.

She just presses her face into the pillow, instead.]

you sure?

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I don't know how else they're gonna get me on that ship and the last thing I need is a bunch of people watching me lose my shit on the way up.

But I'm not leaving until tonight, so you can just knock me out right before they start to board. If you won't mind.

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[She minds.]

i can give you xanax equivalent. you can take it yourself before the flight.

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Are you sure it'll work?

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everything else i've gotten from my suit has worked

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OK. Thank you. Sorry again.

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you don't need to apologize.

but this better not become a thing, okay?

[It's not the first time he's asked her for something to knock him out.]

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Which part? Waking you up or asking for drugs? Or both?

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the second bit.

i can't do that again.

[She knows she's being dramatic, but she can't help it.]

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You won't have to, Steph. I'm just, y'know, really scared. If you have a better suggestion, I'm all ears.

Or eyes, I guess.

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i don't, i just.

this is what my mom did. she started checking out.

i really can't do this again.