[Ellie doesn't know these people, therefore she doesn't give a fuck.]
Maybe they'll think twice about doing shit like this in the future, then.
And maybe if there wasn't a speech on the network about how evil Jesse is ["evil" is a stupid word that Ellie doesn't think applies to anyone in the real world], he would have given them back. But now there are a lot of angry people and the only leverage he has is having those powers.
[Even Ellie knows how that works. There are probably people who wouldn't just let him walk away. Not in such a confined space as the base.]
I know, I nearly had him convinced to give them back before Sonya fucked it up.
[And she's still angry about that, even if she understands why Sonya was angry. She has every right to be, but it wasn't a smart move, tactically, even if Steph can't throw stones where that's concerned.]
But he shouldn't have done it the way he did. Tempest didn't hurt anyone with her powers, not directly, she wasn't using them dangerously and there wasn't an instant threat. He should've gone through official channels so things didn't get so fucked up.
She was at the end of her rope days ago, now she's just clutching at nothing and trying not to drown beneath all this. It feels like she hasn't slept since this all started, except for those few hours while she was still under the effect of Max's empthy, and there's a part of her that just wants that back.
Not caring was so much easier.
But that's not really an option, just like starting to cry isn't, as much as she wants to do that, too. She can't lose it in front of Ellie; if nothing else, it feels too manipulative.]
Okay.
[She drops her head into her hands, sounding defeated, because she just - can't look at Ellie. Can't think of Jesse hurting her, can't think of having to kill him for it.
[Ellie's waiting for Steph to argue, maybe even threaten to drag Joel into this, but it doesn't come. She doesn't like how Steph sounds, but Ellie's stubborn.]
He won't hurt me.
[It's not so much faith in Jesse as much as it is faith in herself. The last time anyone had her pinned, struggling, she took a machete to their face. As much as she likes Jesse, she'd like to think she wouldn't hesitate.]
I know you're worried, but I doubt Jesse is the worst person on the moon.
[And it's not that she doesn't think Ellie would be able to defend herself, but she knows that sometimes getting away isn't enough to undo it. Sonya fought Jesse off, but she's still been carrying that guilt and blaming herself for months. She still broke down in Steph's arms.
[She knows Jesse hasn't exactly been subtle about his drug use, that he's called himself a junkie before, but she still pauses a second before answering.]
Meth kind of fucks you up. So does emotional abuse.
[And she thinks it's a combination of the two that put Jesse where he is now.]
[Just - making sure, because she knows Ellie isn't the best with boundaries, sometimes. And that really isn't something she should've said at all; Jesse doesn't need to be thinking about Walter right now.]
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Maybe they'll think twice about doing shit like this in the future, then.
And maybe if there wasn't a speech on the network about how evil Jesse is ["evil" is a stupid word that Ellie doesn't think applies to anyone in the real world], he would have given them back. But now there are a lot of angry people and the only leverage he has is having those powers.
[Even Ellie knows how that works. There are probably people who wouldn't just let him walk away. Not in such a confined space as the base.]
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[And she's still angry about that, even if she understands why Sonya was angry. She has every right to be, but it wasn't a smart move, tactically, even if Steph can't throw stones where that's concerned.]
But he shouldn't have done it the way he did. Tempest didn't hurt anyone with her powers, not directly, she wasn't using them dangerously and there wasn't an instant threat. He should've gone through official channels so things didn't get so fucked up.
[But Jesse is crazy.
So.]
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[She rolls her eyes. If only Marlene was here.]
much mutiny. very progressive
[She's so glad Saul told her what Jesse did, but she can't help the part of her that wishes she didn't know.
She's going to miss him.]
NOOOO /shoves uisbdgiudgsibsd
[Ellie's already decided she's not going to listen to Steph until she sees what's what with Jesse herself.
Then... she doesn't know.]
I'm sorry I couldn't resist
[Once people stop going for each other's throats, it may actually make them sit up and pay some fucking attention to the state of things.
Anyway, that's not the point:]
Are you gonna keep away from Jesse? I'd rather you didn't even talk to him over the network, but i figure that might be asking too much.
[Ellie's too damn stubborn.]
so doge
Probably not.
[At least she looks a little apologetic for it.]
shibe intensifies
She was at the end of her rope days ago, now she's just clutching at nothing and trying not to drown beneath all this. It feels like she hasn't slept since this all started, except for those few hours while she was still under the effect of Max's empthy, and there's a part of her that just wants that back.
Not caring was so much easier.
But that's not really an option, just like starting to cry isn't, as much as she wants to do that, too. She can't lose it in front of Ellie; if nothing else, it feels too manipulative.]
Okay.
[She drops her head into her hands, sounding defeated, because she just - can't look at Ellie. Can't think of Jesse hurting her, can't think of having to kill him for it.
She wishes she never made that fucking promise.]
laughing isn't allowed during this thread
He won't hurt me.
[It's not so much faith in Jesse as much as it is faith in herself. The last time anyone had her pinned, struggling, she took a machete to their face. As much as she likes Jesse, she'd like to think she wouldn't hesitate.]
I know you're worried, but I doubt Jesse is the worst person on the moon.
it's the only way I can get through it
She doesn't want that to happen to Ellie.]
It's different when it's a friend.
[She still hasn't looked back up.]
doge and booze. so sorrow much drink
now I'm just imagining a drunk shiba
[That's what her plan was before the latest revelation about Jesse came to light.]
But sometimes you've gotta look after yourself, first.
[It used to be easier for her before the whole vigilante gig, and while there are some cases where she just can't do it.
What Jesse did to Sonya is unforgivable.]
shiba with a hangover
Do you know why he's so messed up?
[She doubts it's an easy answer, or one Steph will be willing to share if she has an idea.]
lucille bluth as a shiba
[She knows Jesse hasn't exactly been subtle about his drug use, that he's called himself a junkie before, but she still pauses a second before answering.]
Meth kind of fucks you up. So does emotional abuse.
[And she thinks it's a combination of the two that put Jesse where he is now.]
yes i approve
By his parents or something?
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[God knows she wouldn't want someone doing the same to her.]
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[Now she has more than enough questions to ask Jesse.]
Shit really sucks right now.
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[Just - making sure, because she knows Ellie isn't the best with boundaries, sometimes. And that really isn't something she should've said at all; Jesse doesn't need to be thinking about Walter right now.]
And yeah, kiddo, it really does.
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[Which is true; she doesn't want Jesse thinking that Sonya is using this to turn people against him.]