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[She can guess there's a reason behind Isaac's understanding; lid is too specific not to be, but she won't push it.]

i might take you up on one of those offers one day

and thanks.

have you been doing okay, isaac? i keep meaning to check in but you know how it is

[everything keeps being horrendously fucked up.]

shh you're fine <3

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me? yeah just fine.

everything is happening to everyone else, not me. i dont have much to complain about all things considered

[Except for, you know, one of his friends being in jail because she apparently locked another friend in a closet, which puts everything in a new light and Peter doesn't know what to do and Scott isn't here and nobody will let him punch Jesse.

But again, none of those are really his problems. Except maybe the last one.]

:|

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just cause it's happening to other people doesn't mean it doens't affect you

i'm here for you, too, you know? if you need to talk or not talk or puch something

<3!

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to tell the truth, im a little better at punching than i am at talking

but ill let you know okay?

<3333 i guess

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same here, most of the time

yeah. you know my number, and you could probably track me down even if you forgot it, i'm sure

[werewolves???]

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yeah im getting better at the whole tracking thing

seriously though. do you feel any better or are you just saying that so i dont worry about you?

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just don't try to sneak up on me, kay?

no i do feel better. i mean it's not an instant fix but i was sort of doing the reverse of this the other day so i'm trying not to be a hypocrite and trying to tell the guilt to shut up and be logical about it. which is a work in progress but what you said helped, hearing it from someone who gets it instead of someone just trying to make me stop feeling bad

[which isn't to say that Isaac isn't trying to stop her from feeling bad, but the fact he can empathize makes it easier to believe.]

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noted. and that makes sense. thanks for the honesty i guess

i mean im pretty sure its okay to feel what youre going to feel. getting mad at yourself because you cant stop feeling guilty is just going to make things worse. stuff like this takes awhile to go away, i think its okay if it's not magically better overnight

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yeah i'm trying to be better about that too

[The honesty.

Speaking of which, she honestly isn't sure what to do with his words. She stares at them for a long, long moment, because he's right, again, but she stil can't quite help feeling that way. Again.

All her friends want her to be okay, and she gets that, she wants the same for them, but it's hard. She's working on it, she's trying, but it's such a relief for someone to say that it's okay for things to take time, that he's not expecting her to be magically better.]

thank you. i didn't even realize i needed to hear that but i really fucking did.

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haha what can i say? im a pretty smart guy

[No, Isaac. You're not. You just got lucky and you know exactly how this feels and how to sort of get through it.]

dont rush it. just let it happen day by day, that kind of thing. in the meantime you should come get some food with me

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you're something, alright

[She's just teasing.]

i'll try, thank you. but i'm gonna have to take a raincheck on food, i'm kinda tied up right now

[guarding/babysitting Dick]

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[Ouch.]

...right

i guess ill see you around then

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[Wait now she feels bad.

Goddamn texting she is so bad at it.]

i was just teasing, with the first part. sorry if it didn't, um. work?

and i really can't leave where i am right now, i'm not blowing you off or anything. i've gotta look after someone.

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no its fine

ill see you around though okay?

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okay

i'll make you dinner or something when i'm not on babysitting duty

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careful now im a formerly homeless teenage guy

offer me food and i will probably never leave

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maybe that's what i was going for

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oh, smart approach then. i like it

maybe you can show me a thing or two. i should probably learn how to cook someday

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i'll teach you how to make mac and cheese like a pro

[She can cook fancier things than that, but it seems like a good place to start.]

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oh come on im not completely inept. at least skip ahead to the spaghetti lessgon

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are you sure you're a teenage boy????

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well my dad showed me the classics in middle school. you know, mac n cheese, cereal, sandwiches? im pretty sure that was all i ate for awhile

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hey, you've got the main food groups covered, then.

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breakfast, lunch and dinner. sometimes i got really creative and put chocolate sauce over ice cream for dessert

give me a box and i can probably not mess it up. im just not very good at any of the other stuff

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you'll be the next iron chef

the other stuff takes a little while, but it's not hard once you get the hang of it