[She shakes her head, brushing a stray strand of hair out of her face absentmindedly.]
No, it's fine. I mean, people left that place all the time just like they do here, but we were both lucky. We got to stay long enough to say goodbye to each other, so it wasn't like it was unexpected or anything. Besides, I kind of think about it like... I mean, when people leave, I try to think of it like...
[She pauses, trying to think of how to best phrase this.]
Getting to meet so many new people who I care about in both of these worlds has been a gift. And, you know, if the price of that is losing them eventually, then... Even if it hurts, that's something I'm willing to pay. Besides, it's not so much a price when you think about how most of them are much happier back home. I mean, he didn't talk about it much, but I knew how much that place was hurting him.
[All of that, somehow, is completely sincere and honest. Well, for the most part — she doesn't include the fact that he's here now. That's something that's still too close to her heart for her to share.
A shrug.]
By that point, though, I'd been there for around two and a half years, I think? So, I don't want to say I'd gotten used to people leaving, but... I guess you learn to accept it after a while. So it's alright.
Well, it's like... I can't change that people leave, and I don't want to change that I'll miss them. But I control how I deal with losing them and missing them, you know? I can either mope around about it or use it to try and remember how lucky I am.
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controlledvariable) wrote2014-02-02 07:59 pm
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[She shakes her head, brushing a stray strand of hair out of her face absentmindedly.]
No, it's fine. I mean, people left that place all the time just like they do here, but we were both lucky. We got to stay long enough to say goodbye to each other, so it wasn't like it was unexpected or anything. Besides, I kind of think about it like... I mean, when people leave, I try to think of it like...
[She pauses, trying to think of how to best phrase this.]
Getting to meet so many new people who I care about in both of these worlds has been a gift. And, you know, if the price of that is losing them eventually, then... Even if it hurts, that's something I'm willing to pay. Besides, it's not so much a price when you think about how most of them are much happier back home. I mean, he didn't talk about it much, but I knew how much that place was hurting him.
[All of that, somehow, is completely sincere and honest. Well, for the most part — she doesn't include the fact that he's here now. That's something that's still too close to her heart for her to share.
A shrug.]
By that point, though, I'd been there for around two and a half years, I think? So, I don't want to say I'd gotten used to people leaving, but... I guess you learn to accept it after a while. So it's alright.
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Steph really hopes that it's true, and that Ahiru isn't too hurt by everything that she's been through, but just in case...]
You know it's okay if you're not alright with it? This situation isn't easy, and you're allowed to be upset or angry or think it's unfair.
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Well, it's like... I can't change that people leave, and I don't want to change that I'll miss them. But I control how I deal with losing them and missing them, you know? I can either mope around about it or use it to try and remember how lucky I am.
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[Feelings, she means, since she worries that Ahiru tries to ignore any negative feelings.]
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No, I'm not.
[And it's true enough; she's just trying not let it bury her.]
Um, thank you for listening. I don't want to keep you up! You must be tired.
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[She pulls Ahiru into a loose hug, kissing her hair again.]
I'm used to running on a few hours sleep, I'll be fine. Are you ready to go back to sleep?
[That's what really matters; if Ahiru needs to stay up longer, Steph will stay with her.]