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[It's still hard to believe that stuff, but she thinks about what Sonya said and tries to not dismiss it, at least.

It's a start.

Now it's time to tease a little:]

i'll mention it all i want thank you very much!

maybe i'll even put some graffiti on the walls or something, just so everyone knows

"ahiru is awesome"

it'd liven this place up a bit

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well i guess that's okay then! :) thank you for asking how i was too

hahaha steph no! graffiti is not a good idea

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you're welcome

why not! i think it's an important message that's worth defacing public property for

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not many messages are worth defacing stuff and i don't think that's one of them

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ahiru i'll let you in on a secret

pretty much any message is worth defacing stuff for

[she totally used to hang out with peole who'd graffiti abandoned buildings and shit what of it.]

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STEPH people worked hard on those buildings! you could get caught

[But if the words had any tone behind them, it would be amusement rather than disapproval.]

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they're just buildings! it doesn't hurt them and it makes them look nicer

anyway

i never get caught

[quackery]

i think the looking better thing depends on how good you are at it

which means you're going to have to prove it once we're back on earth... :)

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you're on, i'll even pick up the spray paint on a mission just to make sure

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[Best influence.]

just as long as it's not one somebody uses a lot

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[Next thing she'll teach Ahiru how to pick locks.]

i'm thinking about getting my own place once we're back down there, maybe i could do one of my own walls

[okay no

she's not that good.]

[quackery]

oh you are? why's that

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i miss having my own space

and i don't really wanna do the whole "new roomies" thing again, with jim and ellie gone.

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that makes sense

i'm sorry about ellie :( what was jim like? i don't think i ever got to know him

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it's okay, i'm glad she wasn't here for all this

[She doesn't even know how Ellie would have taken it.]

he was kind of a hot mess to be honest but he was a good guy. he was closer to ellie than me and he was also good to her even if could be a jerk to everyone else. and he made sure we had the spaceship up and running, so that was nice of him

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[promptly ignores every bad thing]

he sounds like a good person. i'm glad you got to stay with someone like him

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[never change, ahiru]

yeah i'm glad, too, i miss him a little bit, but i think he's better off at home

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yeah

i think one of the best things about being here is getting to meet so many people i never would have had the chance to otherwise

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that's definitely the best part, yeah

[gross]

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good enough that it's worth having to go through the bad things, or at least i think so

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[That actually makes her stop and think.

Is it worth it? Even after everything that's happened, even with how awful she feels?

A few months ago she just wanted to go home and forget Exsilium the way she's sure they do, but now... now she's not so sure.]

yeah, i think they're worth it

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think, not know?

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okay, okay, some of them are definitely worth it

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haha i was just curious, not trying to get you to agree!

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i know, but you're right. no matter what happens it'll be worth it for some of the people i've had a chance to meet

[right?]