controlledvariable: (Batgirl -- did I break it?)
(ง︡'-'︠)ง ([personal profile] controlledvariable) wrote2014-02-02 07:59 pm
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[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-25 08:16 am (UTC)(link)
right um... god this is really awkward so just bear with me okay?

i kind of... figured out what happened. and you said you feel guilty when we talked but i didnt know why then but now that everything sort of makes more sense i wanted to... i dont know maybe talk about it.

i just think that... god give me a minute to think here
freezerburned: (I will not speak of your sins)

[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-25 08:25 am (UTC)(link)
the last time someone locked me in a closet i almost killed someone. a friend of mine. i attacked her and she would have died if scott hadnt come and let me out. he had to hold me down until i regained control.

and it sucked. and i felt really guilty but she said she was fine. the person i attacked said it wasnt my fault and they both forgave me like that.

because sometimes when you need to get out you lose it. i... i know how it feels to not be able to breathe anymore. i know how you lose control and youll do anything to open that lid- door whatever. youre not you, youre just a trapped animal and your mind is gone.

so its stupid to blame yourself. you know and i know that youre a logical, smart person. we both know that youre more than capable. if anyone ever blames you for what happened then you just look at them and know that they have never felt the way you have

and then hit them because they're wrong. but that's beside the point
freezerburned: (Sometimes I'm nervous when I talk)

[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-25 02:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[This hits a little too close to home, and Isaac has to force himself to keep reading after the first line of her response, his jaw set tight as he reads over her writing. And it makes sense. All of it makes sense, especially when he things about Steph in that close- when he thinks about himself in the closet, in that freezer.

Isaac doesn't know how to respond. He's not really good at talking about this part of himself, but he's glad that she's receptive to what he has to say. He considers ending it there, but that would be rude, and the last thing he wants to do is start more misunderstandings.

Besides, this isn't about him at all. He doesn't have to make this about him.]


good. im glad i could help.

i get it. trust me i do. if you ever want to talk about anything im here. even if its just swapping horror stories over a beer or something, i dunno.

and if you never want to talk thats fine too. either way i get it. and uh... i dont think of you any differently either- you should know that.
freezerburned: (It's just enough to know it's there)

shh you're fine <3

[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-25 02:51 pm (UTC)(link)
me? yeah just fine.

everything is happening to everyone else, not me. i dont have much to complain about all things considered


[Except for, you know, one of his friends being in jail because she apparently locked another friend in a closet, which puts everything in a new light and Peter doesn't know what to do and Scott isn't here and nobody will let him punch Jesse.

But again, none of those are really his problems. Except maybe the last one.]
freezerburned: (Now there's no holding back)

<3!

[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-25 03:01 pm (UTC)(link)
to tell the truth, im a little better at punching than i am at talking

but ill let you know okay?
freezerburned: (I'll be home)

[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-25 04:57 pm (UTC)(link)
yeah im getting better at the whole tracking thing

seriously though. do you feel any better or are you just saying that so i dont worry about you?
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[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-25 05:18 pm (UTC)(link)
noted. and that makes sense. thanks for the honesty i guess

i mean im pretty sure its okay to feel what youre going to feel. getting mad at yourself because you cant stop feeling guilty is just going to make things worse. stuff like this takes awhile to go away, i think its okay if it's not magically better overnight
freezerburned: (I knew my weakness)

[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-25 05:45 pm (UTC)(link)
haha what can i say? im a pretty smart guy

[No, Isaac. You're not. You just got lucky and you know exactly how this feels and how to sort of get through it.]

dont rush it. just let it happen day by day, that kind of thing. in the meantime you should come get some food with me
freezerburned: (Tell me what you want me to say)

[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-26 01:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ouch.]

...right

i guess ill see you around then
freezerburned: (To kill us while we stand here)

[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-27 03:55 pm (UTC)(link)
no its fine

ill see you around though okay?
freezerburned: (And what fades away)

[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-27 04:10 pm (UTC)(link)
careful now im a formerly homeless teenage guy

offer me food and i will probably never leave
freezerburned: (I never knew daylight could be so violen)

[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-27 04:19 pm (UTC)(link)
oh, smart approach then. i like it

maybe you can show me a thing or two. i should probably learn how to cook someday
freezerburned: (Blame it on my own sick pride)

[personal profile] freezerburned 2013-11-27 04:27 pm (UTC)(link)
oh come on im not completely inept. at least skip ahead to the spaghetti lessgon

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