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[It's a choice.

She repeats that over and over in her head as his aura skirts on the edge of her awareness. This isn't like Max taking anything away; she's in control, she chose to walk over to him and now she can feel his aura and she can choose to let it work.

She exhales slowly.]

Thank god for that, 'cause I don't know much of anything, these days.

[werewolfing]

[peter knows what she's doing, that there's probably a whole little war going on in her head, so he just stays still other than the hand on her hair and lets her have it out. he can't hurt her, and wouldn't even if he could, and nothing's holding her there. she can move whenever she wants.]

You and me both, super girl.

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[She feels guilty for this, too, like she's using him, but she just wants to be able to be around him without panic seizing her up. She just wants to stop being scared.]

One day Kara's gonna turn up again and wonder why I stole her codename.

[werewolfing]

[he'd rather be used like this than think he's violating her by existing in her proximity, really. it's only okay to live a life of making other people uncomfortable when the discomfort comes from their own small-mindedness.]

I guess I'll come up with something if that happens.

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Wonder Girl's taken too, for the record.

[In case that's what he was gonna go for next.

It's a little bit easier to just talk like normal, like everything isn't fuck up.]

Used to be the Girl Wonder, when I was Robin.

[werewolfing]

[he'll go with it, because it's much easier to slip into banter than it is to try and deal with messy things like feelings.]

Girl Wonder has a good ring to it. Acceptable nickname change.

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The best part is that it's adaptable, although I can't say I'm a fan of Girl Hostage.

[Not that she got tied up nearly as much as the boy Robins, but still.]

[werewolfing]

Yeaaaah, pretty sure that'd get panned by every critic.

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[That gets a quiet huff of a laugh, a little more tension draining from her posture.]

Boy Virgin was always a good one to tease my ex with, when he was Robin.

[werewolfing]

[his turn to huff a laugh, shaking his head.]

Harsh. Obviously he missed out.

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He was never interested in that sorta thing.

["sex". the word you're looking for is "sex"]

[werewolfing]

[peter doesn't understand. he doesn't understand at alllllll. what is wrong with you, tim drake, that you did not hit that with the fist of a thousand suns.]

...did he happen to be a eunuch?

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[Now she laughs for real.]

Jesse asked me if he was gay. But he's neither, as far as I know.

[werewolfing]

[good. that's good, even if he is genuinely baffled by the foolishness of this ex-boyfriend. he shakes his head, clucking his tongue.]

Seriously skewed priorities, man.

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He was kind of a dork, I think girls scared him a little.

[just a little.]

[werewolfing]

And yet he landed himself the Girl Wonder? Miracles never cease.

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I went after him, actually. He had a girlfriend when we met.

[And then he didn't C:

Steph you homewrecker.]

[werewolfing]

Ooh, that explains it.

[it's okay, steph, peter's girlfriend more or less decided that she was going to get with him come hell or high water or logic too.

he's just smart enough to bang her. a lot. even though she's pregnant with someone else's kid.]

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I think he finally learned that girls exist this year, got himself engaged and everything.

[Sort of...

She mostly just sounds amused, anyway, even if she'd been angry at the time.]

[werewolfing]

[peter raises a very eloquent and bushy eyebrow.]

Man, did he get a training montage or something?

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I think a bunch of his friends dying might've changed his perspective on some things.

[a beat]

Uh. They came back.

[so it's okay to make jokes like that????]

[werewolfing]

Well gosh, I guess if they came back then it's an after-school special in the making.

[dry, deadpan, like that's not profoundly disturbing on several levels.]

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Mm. [She gets that tone, even if death isn't such a permanent thing where she comes from.] Bart and Conner were as good as new. I was back, too, but I'd never actually been dead, so.

[ok steph]

[werewolfing]

[he's starting to wonder if she's not exaggerating her survival, yep. but there is nothing that will be made better by pursuing the answer to that, so he's sure not gonna.]

Best way to come back, I guess. Hard to say, people usually stay dead where I'm from.

[except you, peter. and all those other exceptions.]

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The paperwork was hell.

[Because there's paperwork for that, in her world.

Of course there is.]

You get to come back if you're important enough, usually. Superman, Flash, Green Arrow, they get second chances. We've even got, uh, Lazarus Pits. You toss a dead body in and they'll come back, though it gets kinda fucked up sometimes.

[Jason.]